I have a very clear picture of where I've been and I've got a handle on what I'm doing at the moment (mostly raising my boys) but I feel like I don't have a clue about what I should be focusing on for tomorrow. Not because I feel I need to be, but because I want to be! The end result is a lot of not so nice chatter in my head, which I logically know to be destructive, or at the very least a little obtrusive, but I can't help it! Ugh!
Then I ran across a quote, what else is new, that made me feel just a little brighter. It made me rethink my perspective on me- and that always makes me smile. This quote is quite short, only seven words long, but it's profound in it's simplicity (most profound things are quite simple, Occam's razor and all that) and it's my new mantra:
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Ok, so for sure I am wandering and maybe I am trying a bunch of different things right now, and maybe I am a bit fuzzy when it comes to my focus- but I AM NOT LOST!!!!! And, maybe some of you out there can relate to this and I am here to tell you that YOU ARE NOT LOST EITHER!!!!
I always tell my children that the truth lies in the journey, not the final destination. I just have to accept that my journey may be a bit longer than others. But what I got from Tolkien is that this doesn't necessarily have to be pejorative in nature.
I have learned two things about my quest so far: 1. If my journey is longer and more circuitous and more arduous than others- maybe I will learn more along the way and 2. my path is my path alone. The shape of it, the length of it, the obstacles along it and the beauty that it unfolds- is truly unique to me and that makes me smile too.
So, if you've found your purpose, your focus, your bliss- God love ya' and if you haven't yet- keep on wandering proudly along!!
